Lack of Purpose in the Workplace = Death

So I haven't been posting as much because I've been given more responsibilities at work. It has done a WORLD, I'm talmbout the whole wide WORLD, of good for my work life.

I mean I've made several post talking crap about my job. Since I've had more to do what do you hear? SILENCE. CONTENTMENT.

When you have actual things to do, you have less time to think about how much you hate your job. IJS. I also feel like I'm connected to the people I'm working with now. Before I was more of an island that no one really had to visit or come in contact with. I also didn't really need to engage with other people. I was a self-sufficient island, so that kinda sucked.

Now I'm like actually doing things that matter and are important to the mission of the company. I get to interact with staff on a deeper level than, "How was your weekend." (Even though that's still a thing). But it's great. I feel needed, useful and focused because I'm doing work AND I'm doing work that I actually enjoy. Work that takes more mental effort than "Hello (Insert Company Name), how may I direct your call?" Or endlessly date stamping mail and endorsing checks.

I hate my job much less than before. Hell, I might not hate it at all now. But what's going to happen when we hire a replacement for the open position? I dread this. It sucks to think I'm just beginning to feel like I'm a part of the team only to then be booted back to my private island. I applied for the position but who knows what's going to happen.

Still this whole situation has opened my mind to how important it is for people to feel useful. If people don't feel like they're contributing to their company, they are basically dead inside. I'm telling you from experience. It kind of pisses me off that bosses/managers/supervisors are fully aware of how some positions are basically just skin and bones but they do nothing to fatten them up. They know these positions are crappy but they do nothing to improve them.

I applied to this job to work and get money. Do you know how disappointing it is to literally get neither? The pay is crap and before I got these added responsibilities I was basically waiting for the day to end. Every. Day. I redesigned and revived my whole blog at work. I've read whole novels, whole book series while at work. That's how much time I've had. That's how little my managers cared about the work I was doing. Like bruh, fareal?

And you can apply to new jobs until you are blue in the face, if it ain't your time to leave a place ain't nothing you can do about it. I'm speaking from experience. I think one of the most sucky things is to feel stuck in your situation after actively trying to get out. You're not just complaining day in and day out. You're making moves, trying to get to that next level and the world is like, "Nawl."

I'm trying to make the best of my situation until I can get a new (BETTER) situation. I just hope I can make it to the end cause I am WEARY.