Afraid to Fall

I offered you my hand
So that we may leap together
Dive into senseless bliss
Plunge into hopeless devotion
And partake in the suicide of our doubts

But you cringed at my hand
Your heart fled from me
The look in your eye was enough
To cause my own to
Release what I had for you

Why do you leave me here
Misunderstood and hurt
Why won’t you jump
Let it all go
Why won’t you fall
In love with me

The questions replays over and over in my mind
As tears burn down my cheeks
Still I jumped for you
Unafraid of the damage that might result
I professed my love to you and the world
Yet that did not suffice
I held your heart on a pedestal above my own
I sacrificed my feelings for yours
You were so delicate
I didn’t want you to break
So I shielded your heart with mine
And I took the bullet for you ----- I died for you

Together, we should have jumped
But you let your worries consume our love and manifest into pain
You let your fears infect our love and sicken our hearts
You let every hopeless feeling strip us of the most valuable treasure in the world
Our love could not take it
So it jumped too
Without us to parachute
It fell from the heavens to earth,
and it broke


Note: Looking back on the poems from my formative years, I must say that I was so heavy. Not heavy like deeply profound, but the things that I believed in the expectations I had of myself and other people were just so overwhelming. It was all way more serious than it needed to be but that's puberty for you.